I recall reading some time ago a story about a writer talking to a group of people at a party - naturally, the subject of 'getting around to writing' came up. How do you do it?, they asked. And the writer had no answer, for writing was simply what they did, something as automatic as breathing.
1I mention this, because I don't feel that way about what I'm doing.
Engineering is good. Objectively, I mean - supports the social organism, at least if someone can make a buck thereby. (Although ASME, for example, still has the idealistic code of ethics from the years when such things were valued by the leading lights of the profession.
3) Also as a career, since if you're any good someone
can make a buck thereby. And I'm ... not actively bad, and certainly a good applied mathematician and a passable technical writer. Possibly even capable of thinking fast on my feet when talking to possible sources of money. But I'm not crazy about the work.
But what are you supposed to do, if you're a
grad student already? Go to your advisor and say, "Sorry about the research projects, but I want to do comp. sci. now, seeya"? I think I find mathematics cool, but will it be cool if that's all I'm doing, eight hours a day? And if I can't say "yes, I'm sure", then isn't it a bad idea to drop out? If I can't say "no", isn't it a bad idea not to try it?
...I ought to get some sleep.
4 Thanks for listening, anyway.
1 I've probably read that story a dozen times, now that I think of it. I guess a lot of writers are ... well, writers, in this sense.2
2 Yes, there are confirmed exceptions. Connie Willis, for example.
3 Approximately 1900-1930, I'd say - I read about it in a book, but it was a while ago.
4 Another bad sign - the engineers I've heard are complaining about four hours a night, and I'm whinging about only getting seven?